SO, why am I here?

I know that question has been asked and answered many times. I am putting forth an answer that answers both the spiritual and temporal. I can say that I am now learning why after almost 47 years. As I have embarked on my new learning in preparation for my new career I have become amazed at the universe. As a child I looked to the stars and to the logic of it all. I read a year ago or so that scientists have stated that the universe has an end. So when you get to the end of the universe what is there? A brick wall saying you cant go any further? A line in the sand saying don't cross this line? An endless waterfall that once you go over you disappear? Such learned men create strange things. Then there was an article that said the universe was like a soccer ball with hexagon shapes. Again all to contain within some type of understanding. Can we not explain everything? Is it man's ignorance that forces us to explain every little thing?
Well as I was listening to a podcast on anatomy and physiology about DNA transportation and translation ( I haven't started classes yet but wanted to get a head start) that I saw the glory of God's creation again. I have seen it many times. In the water, in the air, on top of a mountain, at the birth of my children, at the Temple with my wife. So again as I am learning again I see the treasures of what God created. We are not tadpoles. We are majestic complex humans created in his image to further the cause of good and justice.
I sat and thought why am I hear? I am hear to learn. To teach. To love. To cry. To stand tall. To protect. To listen. All these human experiences to bring me to a greater understanding of he who created me and to give thanks. So why am I going down this path to become a nurse? Lets rewind.
I was born with out the traditional loving parents. I was moved about from home to home until I was 11. 8 different homes. I was treated well at times and not so well at other times. No matter I always knew it was just a matter of time. I started working at age 13. I have a resume of jobs that is long. Lawn mower, busboy dishwasher, fry cook, broiler cook, prep cook, short order cook, Burger King employee, T-shirt presser, hay bayler, Oil rig roughneck, car washer, hoddie, (makes concrete for bricklayers) Street sweeper, liquor store cashier, light bulb changer(BYU), tool calibrator, general gopher for defense contractor, english teacher (Taiwan), International sales, Demolition worker, dump truck driver, wood chopper, shipping and receiving clerk, stereo sales, stereo manager, Newspaper depot manager, computer operator, pool cover salesman, Pool designer, business owner and certified nurse assistant. Whew. Can I retire now?
All things are for your good. I have learned something from EVERY job I have had. I know that I am now in the right profession. The other professions have helped me get here but now I am heading towards a meaningful and satisfying career. I have always enjoyed helping people on a large and small scale. I have always wanted to solve problems. Even if I could not solve my own. Isn't that like everyone though? As I reflect on being a CNA at this time I know that I care for my patients. I genuinely want the best for them. Even if they are rude or mean to me. I have compassion. I thought I lost that for so many years. It was there but it didn't have the right outlet. I have realized that I love my fellow human beings. I may not show it but I do not want anyone to hurt. That doesn't mean I wan t them to steal all that I have for their own enjoyment. I have said mean things in my life for which I am ashamed and saddened. I have hurt people with words and fists. I am ashamed of that also. I have stood up for others rights and have been beaten for it. I have never understood why I was given a gift of fighting. Some day it might come in handy to protect my family.
But I have a deeper gift of compassion. I did not understand it until I had to put a patient into the morgue. I know that I treated this patient with kindness where others didn't. I witnessed others treat this patient with disdain. I never saw her with anything other than a person who needed help. I also saw a patient that is near her end and I told her one day we would meet again and be able to walk together in our Heavenly father's kingdom. She has lost much of her mind but I know she understood me 100 percent. I also saw a patient on his last days needing compassion and understanding where others refused. His last couple of days on earth were painful. I was able to tell him that I would do all in my power to make sure he was comfortable as I could provide. One day I will meet him again and hope that I lived up to my promise.
For some of you reading this you may think who is this person who is typing this? It cant be the Tim I know. It is and always has been. I know that I may not show it but I do care. I know that we are all in this world to be better. It takes some of us a long time to understand this but it is the end result that counts. as long as we do something about it. I am excited to become a nurse and to provide compassion and understanding to those that need it. Will I be perfect every time? You already know the answer to that.