Energized

So, do you ever wonder what energizes you? Of course you do. As I was eating this evening I asked myself why am I so amped and ready to go? Is it the eggs, toast, hash browns, and sausage? Nope. Is it just I am an overly energetic person? Not anymore, ask my wife. Well as I thought more, hence the picture, I realized it is because of you the reader, listener. I really must confess I have been down in the dumps for a few years. It had to do with all my friends. Now don't take this wrong. I had lost touch with so many friends. I didn't have the close bonds that I used to have. As many of you know I have always had many friends. Many of you don't realize just how much you have meant to me over the years. A dear friend passed last year and I could not attend the funeral. I still have not forgiven myself for that. One of my foster mothers recently passed and I met with family members that I had not seen in 40 years. Do I sound old? I have been on a mad rush to reconnect with old friends. Not for necessarily the reminiscing but the pure friendships I enjoyed. To apologize for possible wrong doings also. Dose this mean that I am planning on leaving soon? NO WAY. I really understand the power of friends. Although my family is a great boost to my life it is also a responsibility factor and it is difficult to tell or really show your 2 year old what a good friend I am. I am a firm believer that the family is the central part of my core. I also understand that I have to be a parent more than a friend. Hence the dilemma. I recently made contact with a dear friend that said something to me that hit me funny. They said that they remember me being introspective. I sat there for a bit and realized yep that's me. Hence the Blog. Hence, I wonder if I am using it right. Maybe I will ask Fezzik. He will know. So I went over a profile test I took for one of my classes and it says I am Individualistic, A Developer, An Achiever, and A WOO. (Woo means to bring out traits from other people). So I had to agree. I want others to succeed. I want others to enjoy. Does that mean at my expense? No, I just want people to rise to their potential. Someone told me over 20 years ago if I quit the commitment I was in that I would be a failure the rest of my life. For so long I believed it. I felt like a failure. Sometimes even in marriage I felt that way because I was not the best provider considering my potential. I always thought I would write songs to comfort people. To let them know that others felt as they did. That I could change their life around and make them happy. (maybe after I retire I will try that) Now I know that the Lord was preparing me or allowing things to hit me so i could be prepared for my current course of action. I know that I will be a great nurse. I will care for my patients. I will not be there just to pick up a paycheck. I look forward to the day when I can help someone even though they may revile me but I will care for them no matter what. So you my friends are an integral part of my life. I know that I will rekindle friendships beyond the veil also. This life is so short and there is so much to do. The temple helps me realize that I can not achieve all that is in my brain but that I need to be on the right course. I have found family members to do genealogy for that I always thought I would never be able to do. What a blessing. Am I rambling on yet? So in answer to the question what energizes me. Life, Love, Family and you my friends.

Does my mind hurt?

So in psychology class we have gone round and round about does the mind exist inside or outside the brain. So many have said it is the brain. Of course for those of you who really know me I can argue about anything at anytime. I love to argue. OK I love to debate. I don't get mad at whom ever I am debating with. I do not attack them personally. I just love to have the debate to see what we all think. I could not get my point across in the class that the mind is the spirit we have. Since our teacher is agnostic and is a physicist, it is almost a useless point. But the class knows where I stand. By the way they voted me to be the class liaison. Which means they trust my ability to argue points with administration or faculty. Since I am older than many of the faculty I can brow beat them. If that doesn't work I can take them into a back alley and teach them a thing or two. On to the point, I am in pain. My mind is hurting. How do I memorize all the bones, condyles, epicondyles, crests, tubercles and such? Well somehow I memorized enough for the test. Now it is on to the muscles. Why do they have to have nearly every consonant in the alphabet in their name? Bugs the heck out of me. But this too shall pass. So do I think that it is necessary? You tell me if as an RN I will ever say to my patient, your gastrocnemius muscle is torn. Or that your intercondyular eminence is worn out. How about, your calf muscle is torn and your tibia is wearing out. But then again it is neat trivia I can impress the kids with. Speaking of which. Jillian turned 10. Yippeeeee. I will post pictures later when I get back home. The day of the party we went to a nursing home for her group to sing. It was great. Bridget also sang and she just loves it. She smiles from ear to ear. She is just the most loving girl. Hope everyone is safe and happy. Just think only 3 1/2 years till the next president.